Гарри Топор - Собеседник - текст песни, слова, перевод, видео

Son, why are you so fast? Why are these terrible thoughts in your head?

I gave you life. Why were you standing on the ledge, ready to hit the ground and kill yourself?

I've long endured all the curses you uttered to the sky -

But I can't let you die feeling like I've betrayed you.

You're a fiction, not a God. I always prayed for you, but you couldn't care less.

I was sick for a long time, until I was 12, and lived in filthy basements, starving to death.

I was alone on the planet, my world a testing ground. Death never left me.

I picked pockets on the trams, just to have enough for milk.

Remember that New Year's Eve when I missed the damn plane -

My wife and lover were frolicking at home; this story is definitely like a joke.

Where were you when both your sons chose heroin over school? Do you remember how, returning from the factory, I saw their faces and realized they were gone?

You're our heavenly commander! You're our master, our guide.

But I think that in life, you're just a petty, pathetic old man.

Why are you silent? You have nothing to say, huh? Are you speechless?

For half my life, I've dreamed of seeing you, only to tear you to pieces.

Where have you been? Your life is a myth. Like the secret of the ancient pyramids.

The gods have been spitting down on people ever since they climbed Olympus.

Where have you been? Let's talk about you now, my reserved vis-à-vis.

Tell me, why did you allow crosses to be erected on the sites of children's graves?

They say you're not here, or you've given up on us, like you don't give a damn about us all.

If there's dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you have granted death. I'm alone here, show me the way I can find.

We're left alone with you, my dear God.

They say you're gone, or you've given up on us, like you don't give a damn about us.

If there's dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you gave birth to death.

I'm alone here, show me the way I can find.

We're left alone with you, my dear God.

This world is evil and poisonous. You wouldn't have been able to set foot on earth,

If I hadn't been by your side from the very beginning.

My sinful son, judge for yourself:

Your neck is entangled in the umbilical cord; it was impossible to give birth.

I saw your mother suffer—and I saved you both,

To give you a chance to give birth.

Where was I? I was giving you a chance to find a piece of bread and milk for lunch.

I made you miss the plane that exploded in the sky on New Year's Eve. The men in the wife's circle danced. I simply showed you the face of that beast.

Remember what you said about me that night: that I'm a pathetic old man.

I showed the children the path, but you, my son, you understand, I cannot walk it for them.

Seeing their father constantly beating his mother—they chose this path themselves.

Where were you? You're a father, and your son was killing himself with a terrible poison in front of you,

In the room next to your injected younger brother, quietly hanging by a belt.

Son, why are you so fast? Why are these terrible thoughts in your head?

I gave you life. Why were you standing on the ledge, ready to kill yourself on the ground?

The leaden clouds in the sky gathered into a large dome.

Blaming his interlocutor, this man shouted into an empty corner.

They say you don't exist, or you've given up on us, like you don't give a damn about us all. If there's dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you have given death.

I'm alone here, show me the way I can find.

We're left alone, my dear God.

They say you're not here, or you've given up on us, like you don't give a damn about us.

If there's dawn in the sky, it means: with the birth of life, you have given death.

I'm alone here, show me the way I can find.

We're left alone, my dear God.